The Punch.

Every so often you get a piece of news out of the blue that throws you, and not in a good way.
I got that piece of news today, I found out that the Ex had moved on and it was a lot soon than expected.
I'm not saying I haven't been a hermit since the break up, but at the same time the word "relationship" makes me want to run to a corner curl up in a ball and hide.

Nevertheless news like that hurts and does feel like a punch in the gut and it takes some time to process. But you know what having had time to process it and speaking to a few friends, I'm OK. Sure it hasn't made for the best monday in the history of time but it has given me closure, it's never going to happen again and now I can go on living my life. Chapter closed. It is day's like this that I remember why we weren't right for each other, there were some serious varieties in lifestyle choice and life plans. Most importantly we didn't want to move mountains for each other, my mother has always says if you want to move mountains for someone you will and we didn't want to. He wouldn't come to Bali for me and I would move for him, case closed. It is time for me to move on to pastures new and remember everything will be OK in the end because how can it not be? I'm 22 and have my life ahead of me to PIBE.

Music has got me through a lot of my break up so I will leave you with the immortal words of miss Kelly Clarkson. You are right miss Clarkson what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I am as of yet still alive despite hitting rock bottom. The only way is up and I just keep on climbing.

Lauren 

My happy place.

Today I'm to reunited with one of my favourite people, the lovely Maud Ryder.

This girl must be some kinda of angel because she put up with my for 3.5 months while travelling around Asia and we share one great love in common (except gin) Bali!

I'm not going to sugar coat it, I have never been happier than I was in Bali. Maybe because it was the first time I relaxed in 5 year or maybe it was the first time I felt free and able to enjoy myself. Whatever the reason it is a wonderful place that everyone must visit.

One of the reason's I'm so excited to see Maud is because we can finally celebrate going back to Bali! Yes, in August 2014 we will get to go back, our flights are booked it's officially and you know what it can't go soon enough.

I am a strong believer that it is the little things that get you through a bad day, whether it is a cup of tea, seeing one of your favourite people or a much needed G&T. I get through each day at my boring job by knowing this isn't it, there is a big old world out there that I'm going to visit and working is just a step towards paying for it.

I found this quote last year during travelling and it sums up my feeling at the moment. If I can't enjoy life now being single and in my twenties when can I? 

I will report back tomorrow with what student like antics we get up to wish us luck! 

Lauren 

Dog Therapy.

I have survived my first Christmas and New Year as a single lady and in hindsight it wasn't too bad. Unfortunately, it seems that as I have become uno, all of my friends have become duo's thus meaning I have taken on the role of third, fifth or even seventh wheel. Not fun.

Luckily two lovely boys saved me this holiday season...

Meet the boys. We looked after these two bouncy boys over Xmas and they have truly kept me sane. Forget retail therapy, dog therapy is the best way to get over anything that's wrong and for me that was feeling lonely and alone over Christmas, especially when you need a cwtch. 

This feeling of really feeling alone hit me hard on NYE, when a lot of my friends canceled on me to be with other halves. Well let's just say I was saved from being a third wheel by a knight in shining armour but it got me think, when did everyone rush to grow up and settle down at 22?

Luckily for me having the boys meant I could act like a child for a few more days, throwing balls, splashing in puddles, running across the moors and more importantly having someone to just crap watch tv with. Who could say no these faces?! 

I realise this makes me sound like a "crazy dog lady" but I serious recommend it. This Christmas was hard for me and I have to say thank you boys you mad it all better. So who needs a man when you can have two boys smiling boys at your side. 

This is the last negative post, it's now onwards and upwards for 2014, bring on the PIBE. 

Lauren